1.04.2003
So today and yesterday there was a huge blowout b/w the rents and i. and, as usual, it ended in "you're leaving river oaks." well, BLAH...ya know, the school is not worth all this hell of hearing about money, the cause of my not having a car, the cause of my "sarcastic and synical behaivor"...blah blah, and so on. so they tell me to write down everything i hate about their parenting techinques. natrually, being 17, i have MANY things that spew themselves from my brain onto the paper. and, of course, knowing me...it comes out in the form of poetry. after 2 hours in my closet, i have a masterfully written "hate letter". (in their words) (...in my opinion it was a work of art) finally, all the pounding in my head for the past months was now beautifully set to rhymes. but NO. thats not the way they saw it. for in the middle of my bath the next morning, i get a well-written letter back, giving me 3 options. A.) be emancipated from them, live on my own, blah blah blah. B.) go live with GRANDMA. (and you all know that i'd rather die a slow and painful death) or C.) finish the semester at sterlington, take english 4 this summer, and still graduate with tops. then go off to college.(hopefully LSU) although none of them REALLY fit my pre-planned agenda, the least painful would definately be C. i mean, hell...ONE semester at sterlington, then off to LSU certainly wouldnt kill me. in fact, it might be very beneficial. (to my mental health, that is) so as of right now, i've chosen D. the criteria being that i get to sit here for another year, wear my jan brady mask like i always have before, and wait it out. i mean...ive already ordered my ring and have my jacket, ect. and i guess i can do without a car even though in 9 months i'll be 18. all i can say, is this time i think i DEFINATELY forgot to buckle my mental seatbelt...and one more stunt like this, and i just might fly off the coaster.
lj [4:37 PM]
